What would it feel like to stand in front of your mirror in your underwear and tell yourself you love everything you see?
Dance taught me to embrace my body. I’ve heard many times people talking about wishing they had a dancers body. But you wanna know how that happens? You stand half naked in front of a mirror practicing flexing and posing your legs, but in my youth I wasn’t praising myself, I was critiquing everything that wasn’t perfect.
A body builder can stand in front of an audience and flex and pose in the littlest of briefs and yet it’s praised and aspired. What’s the difference? Is it because I’m gay? If a kid watches a body building competition do you shut it off and say, kids are watching?
Creativity comes from a place of self acceptance. I’m not just this one thing but all of them. Everything about me makes me unique. It’s true, I have no desire to fit in. I want to be the one and only Amaker. I believe learning to love what makes you different will lead you to your greatest creative potential because we are each individual and so is your creativity if you allow it. I am no longer that kid critiquing what I don’t like but accepting all the quarks and nuances however they may look without wanting or needing anyone’s approval. I flex in my undies, practice ballet and kungfu at planet fitness. I am apart of one of the best theater companies in the world and I’m content being the best background actor who as ever lived.
The other day I was on set, playing a waiter and giving 150%. I always try to inspire the other guys around me to get more into it. They said, “I’m only getting paid $165, so they’ll get $165 worth of work. When I get $2000, then I’ll do $2000 worth of work.” To this I replied, how are they going to trust you with $2000 if they can’t trust you with $165?
The goal for me has been to be a consistent working artist and that’s the life I’m living. My creative process is my own, however it may look to you, try and understand that it will never be anyone else’s. If I can impart something, it is, I that you spend hours upon hours discovering yours.